What if?

7 billion people in this world
around 30 million people in my country
what are they usually doing from day to day?

Had been living without much water supply these few days
Thanks to factories that polluted the dam
Shower is always an ASAP thing nowadays
Washing dishes with minimal amount of water sent by the water truck
Stocking up big bottles of mineral water
That's how's my life recently

Took the not very efficient public transport yesterday morning
It is my first time taking it before 7am
Seeing people getting on from different stops
Feeling the crowd when it was about to reach the city centre
Looking at different kind of people doing different things
Some sleep, some reading, some swiping phone
Wonder how many different things can 30 million people do at the same time

Sometimes I think of what will happen if there's water shortage in other countries
Well, I think this is not a very uncommon thing here
So for me I am probably used to it and can bear with it for a few days at least
But what if this happens in a very well developed country?
What if this happens to those that take extremely long showers or use a lot of water?
Will they be able to survive with this situation?

Anyway these are just vague thoughts
Probably too free to think about all these unnecessary questions
Maybe I need to consult someone who can give me answers on these
Well, off to book reading soon
I guess I just need more knowledge on everything
Appreciating the days which I still can carry out my own plans

Preparation for my next stage of life

Transitions are always tough
Yet I will be facing it from next week onward
Time really flies
A few months ago I was still having my final interview in London
It was a very challenging but interesting interview
Wondering whether I can even pass the final interview
& then the offer comes
Relived, relieved and relieved

Rested for around two months
It is probably the first time in my life
To take such a long break
I know I can't do it any longer
Since I am starting to lose my grip on the normal life
Life had been relaxing, which I definitely need
Due to my forever overthinking habit

Now slowly getting back to reality
Had been gradually picking up things that I have forgotten
Reading a bit since I will probably be too lazy to read once I start work
& yea, still have 6 CFA textbooks waiting for me

Sort of make myself busy on purpose
Maybe keeping myself busy can make me not to think about other parts of my life that often
I don't know
These are just too complicated for me to sort out now
Anyway on the positive side
I will just go with the flow

For me, the past 23 years is just a very long winded dream
Certain parts of it I would like to remember forever
Although there are parts that I would love to forget
Yet these are the things that shaped who I am now
Live everyday with no regrets
That will be the aim

Apart from these
Time to figure out
The step after the next step
Ciao

恍如一场梦的十几天

其实一直都想要写新西兰的故事
但一直都是在一个不知道要写什么的状态
或许我对这里好像也开始有些保留了
我也不知道为什么

好怀念他们

过去的十几天感觉就像梦一样

那么快就过去了

其实在那的时候我就知道会有那么一天

会有很多的不舍

不过还是觉得经历过才会没有遗憾

“会不会有一天时间真的能倒退

退回你的我的回不去的幽幽的岁月”

距离

真的是一个蛮可怕的东西

因为距离

放弃了一些东西

可能自己还是没什么安全感吧

觉得很多事情

就感觉不太可能

就算再怎么喜欢

也只能这样吧

持续在一个很迷茫的状态

其实很多事要做

但暂时还是觉得需要先做一些规划吧

不然真的连自己要什么都不知道

这次的旅程教会我的肯定也不少

能够在那放下一切

专注的玩也是一件值得开心的事

放得开

感觉就像是一家人一样

也不用觉得拘谨不用装

再一个星期

就是人生另一个阶段的开始

紧张？期待吗？

确实挺期待的

因为我希望

这样的一个开始

会再次打造一个不一样的我

边学边走

今天刚好用 iPad 连上了wifi
所以就想写写

来这里其实算是我第一个主动要求的旅行
之前的其实比较不一样
因为都是用了自己存的钱
但这次就真的不够
所以其实更加珍惜

来到这里之后其实就没想要离开了
除了因为环境风景优美之外
其实这是我今年至今为止最心安的一个旅行
除了见到老友
也认识了两个可爱又合得来的朋友
认识新朋友总是开心的
除了人生中又有新的回忆之外
其实也会学习到很多很多

其实感觉近年来不喜欢我的人应该增加了不少哈哈
因为我一直浪，然后也有发图的习惯
变得让人感觉有点富二代吧
其实蛮感谢这些人
让我更懂得人与人之间的不真实
但这样的印象也是我最近比较想给的一个假象
真实目的其实还是希望与在乎我的人分享我的故事

我的故事不会因为我去了很多地方就增加了
而是因为在每一次的旅途中
我都会去从别人或自己身上学到一些
一些我在其他地方都学不到的东西
我希望我的生活中还会有更多的故事
更多能让我分享的事

Transition period

Had an insomnia last night...
That makes me thought of things that I put aside

It had been more than a year since the end
While I still yet to completely sign off from it
There are nights like yesterday
Where I will thought of why I gave up on it at the first place
Still yet to find a suitable replacement for my phone's password
Still yet to throughoutly feel the joy of you moving into a new life
I guess that's what guilt is all about

Aside from that, had chosen to take an exam in June next year
As usual creating hurdles for myself
Started reading a bit, but I'm definitely so off pace now
Wonder how to deal with it when work starts next month
Handling both sides are definitely tough for me
Maybe keeping myself busy will make me spend lesser time on unnecessary stuffs

Moving on to a new experience soon
Before preparing for work
I guess nowadays I care less about what other people think
However people judge doesn't matter much for me
Showing more imperfectness on surface does work I guess
Getting rid of unnecessary attention actually spare more time for myself
To spend more time with those that I care
What for dealing with all those judgements?
They are just unimportant at the end of the day

Not too sure about my future steps
But I'm quite sure what I feel like achieving for now