Learning from people around

A meaningful week, with loads of thinking yet again...

Learnt something from people around me, which proves that learning is not just from books..

Sent a friend off again today. My ex-roommate/ ex-housemate for my past 3 years in Durham. Time really flies and this is probably the last time i meet him before I fly back home. Well, he is going to remain here and this is the time where we split ways. I always treat him as my brother, because he is the first person from Durham that I know, and we really have some sort of mutual interest in certain things.

Anyway, one of the thing that I have learnt from him is to move on even though things don't go my way. I had been dealing with unhappiness for quite a bit for the past few years, yet I was always taking things too seriously and overthinking. Although these are actually not something bad, sometimes I should really move on as soon as possible. He is the guy that can deal/ react to problems much quicker than me, and for now I had been slowly developing into a person that can move on quicker as well. Maybe I take certain things more lightly for now, especially things about relationship, since I guess there's no point dealing with upsets if things don't go well.

Had been lacking in concentration for a very long time. Yet I managed to find the my concentrating power back yesterday. Helping my cousin to clean her place is certainly a good learning experience for me. Not learning how to clean, but learning how to concentrate. Washing up is probably one of things that can really make me concentrate well. I had been focusing on just washing up for around two hours without even realising about lunch time. I probably sort of need these kind of concentration trainings nowadays so I can focus more from now on.

Another thing learnt yesterday is about how to deal with things. I was a person that deal with things from the least difficult to the most difficult things. In order to do so, I usually put difficult stuffs aside and might end of not even bothering about them. But yesterday I tried to not avoid from difficulties and just solve everything in one go, and I realise is actually not as hard as I had expected. Maybe during certain times, I can solve problems without any order instead of struggling a lot in the end.

That's all I guess, back from no wifi life for 1.5 days, so have the time to update here also. Anyway, hope to cherish more about life here before returning home.

Relate things

Sort of had a debate with a good friend a few days ago, it is basically about relating stuffs together. For example, should work and relationship be correlated? Whatever problem that happens in a relationship should stay there, or should affect other part of a person's life as well?

Personally, I prefer to not related everything together. I have to agree a lot of things are somehow related to each other, but when solving problems I think all these correlations will just make things more complicated. I have certainly failed in relationship in the past, and I am thankful about still being able to go on with other parts of my life. Maybe I experience about these before, that's why I think a problem is more simple if there's no too much links.

I believe I am not really a person that can judge about other people's doing. Maybe if I do a good thing, I will get good fortune in the future, but I will choose not to think about it. I don't want to do a good act because I want to have a good future, I would prefer to do I just because I want to do it. Yes, future needs planning, but certain things which is not in my control/ I would prefer not to know now, then I'll just keep it unknown. Hence, whether a person that did a mistake/ bad thing will end up failing badly, I will let whoever that can decide to decide about it.

As usual, wish there's only one religion, one race, or everyone is just equal. I think these things really cause a lot of unnecessary problems. I was in a restaurant two days ago, siting beside some arrogant chinese students. Just because the waiter in the restaurant nag about them giving too many coins, a female student CLAIMED that the waiter is not china chinese, just some other chinese. So as usual, this claim applies to me as well. I was like, wtf what's that to brag about, not like my mandarin lose to you also.... @@. Discrimination is surely one of the worst thing that should be corrected. No matter how rich a person is, should not discriminate or look down on others =.=

Pokemon GO just launched in Malaysia 3 days ago, yay! Finally a lot of my friends back home can play. I certainly play as well, and that's the only thing that I look forward to everyday, since I need to constantly do my dissertation as well. Personally, don't think it is a bad thing, and I do get closer with friends that I'm initially not close with. A lot of haters complain about the game, saying that it cause danger, not healthy for people to play, bla bla bla.. I don't think not playing the game makes a person better than the others, is probably just a personal choice. Accident can definitely be avoided if players just be careful and not playing it while driving/ cycling etc. Not everything can only be learnt from textbooks in schools, these are just the mindset of people that keep restricting themselves in their own world. That's what I meant about some people being judgemental and hopes everyone in this world follow what they want. & also relating the game with accidents, bad influence, etc etc are just people's own imagination, and when bad things happen they will just exaggerate them.

Apologise for being critical in this post, but certainly to move forward/ improve, I think people should be more open-minded.

End of the day. Sayonara

你在想谁想到睡不着

“你在想谁想到睡不着 你应该觉得骄傲
很多人想失恋也没有目标 只是想睡个好觉 别炫耀”

“还有人能让你睡不着 还能为某人燃烧
我亲爱的这样浪漫的煎熬 不是想要就能要 别炫耀”

《你给我听好》陈奕迅，词：林夕 ，曲：林俊杰

著名填词人果然是名不虚传。适合睡不着的时候听的这首歌，感觉句句都很到位。有个人想总比没有好，因为有个人想的时候其实还是有一个目标，没人想的时候其实连自己想要什么也不知道。

这里的事忙完了以后，会踏上从新寻找自己的一个路程。因为再过不久就要进入生命中的另一个阶段了，不知道是应该期盼还是不期盼比较好。之后自己也终于能够开始慢慢成为经济独立的人了，应该怎么运用自己赚来的钱也是一门很大的学问吧！无论怎样，答应了别人的事就一定要做到。拿到第一份薪水了之后还是想请表妹吃一顿饭的哈哈！

自己能够给予别人什么呢？这也是一个挺困难的问题。感觉现在把自己剥开以后还是空荡荡的，所以要做出贡献我想以后还是得多付出一些努力。怎样提升自己，是否应该要拿CFA这些有的没的东西也是值得去思考的。可能自己起步也不比别人快，以后赚到的钱也不会是别人想象中的那样多，但想到以后还能够继续打造自己，磨练自己，也还是挺期待的。

夜晚睡不着的时候就想这一些吧！寂静的夜衬托的不一定是孤单，说不定也会提供一些思考的空间。而我在想谁想到睡不着呢，那我就不知道了哈哈！