注定要放下

今天终于要和陪着我4年多的MacBook说掰掰了…
其实还是有点突然
因为去年修了
觉得应该不会那么快再出事
但也就这样了

其实回来之后发生的事还算不少
不顺心的事其实现在回头看还是挺多的
但就把这个当作一个适应期吧
毕竟生活的转换还是需要一定的适应

其实没有备份的东西不少
但我想这也就随缘吧
过去始终还是得放下的
这样的一个失去也未尝不是一件好事
就当做重新开始吧

自己还是比较需要一个像这样的私人空间
有些东西还是比较不适合让太多人知道

觉得是时候，开始重新认识一下自己
重新鉴定一下自己
想想自己想要的是什么
想要达到的东西太多
未来的未知数尤其在这个阶段也是特别多
看来每一天其实还是有挺多事要做的

面对伤病

两天前在重庆机场等飞回吉隆坡的飞机
作呕了两次，腹部到胸都感受到剧烈的疼痛
当时候其实有一丝的念头闪过
就是，我能不能坚持到回家为止？
是不是我的生命即将要结束了？

回来之后算是直接去了医院
现在还在渐渐康复的阶段
但其实这让我明白了很多很多的事
甚至应该说释怀了很多事

当时其实不怕从此离开
只是不想那么快离开
其实这样的心理准备已经做了很久
毕竟身体一直以来并没有很好
所以不会奢望什么长命百岁的

我曾经觉得为什么世界就是那么不公平
为什么努力不一定得到回报
但其实这些现在已经不重要了
因为当时我只想在我家人的身边
然后只想把这事告诉我最好的朋友们
这样就够了

不知从何时开始
我已经习惯把每一天当作人生的最后一天
每一天我都希望尽量不要留下遗憾
能够做到，那我就是幸福的

最近在看本书
里面有句是这样的
“今天很残酷，明天更残酷，后天会更美好，
但绝大多数人都死在明天晚上，却见不到后天的太阳，
所以我们干什么都要坚持”

我没什么奢望的
对未来当然还是自己在计划着
无论之后怎么样
能坚持住，那我就肯定会坚持下来的

感谢一直在我身边的你们

Summary for a month

Haven't been updating my blog for quite a while...

Well, had been a bit busy during the past 30 days. I will say it as busy adding life experiences.

Spent a week in Croatia alone. Despite the amazing scenery, traveling alone is always a challenge for me, yet I still want to put myself into such challenge at times.

Some photos for Croatia...

Sunset view in Zadar

That's what I hope for

I always believe the best option is to have a person at my side to share everything that happens day to day in my life. Although I have yet to find that person, that is still the thing that I really hope for.

A day in the amazing Plitvice National Park

Sunset while kayaking on the sea in Dubrovnik

Hihi

In Split

My slogan: Always wait for the sunset

Separation is always hard, yet still have to leave my beloved cousin in the UK 

Miss her home prepared breakfast

Brunch together

Crodoughs

2 of us

I really miss spending time with her yet I still have to be back eventually. She is such a cute girl btw haha! So I will hope to see her some time soon!

Went for a short trip with my family~

Mummy & younger sis

Never know this place exists till that day

It is actually really nice

Spending time with family is definitely important for me. Although I never really get much rest because of the trip, yet I still really enjoyed it. 

Moving on to China

Meeting the guys in Shanghai

& one of my best friend! ^^

Touring Shanghai at night

Walking by the riverside

Tons of locks

Rain & sickness won't stop me from hiking

Sunrise on top of Huangshan

Thanks for taking care of me during these 2 days!

The whole China trip had been a new experience for me. Got squeezed out of the tube is a new experience definitely. I won't suggest to travel here alone because tourists can probably got conned quite easily. Anyway, that's just my personal experience.

Nearly unable to make my way back due to sickness. Had been feeling so unwell & glad that I'm back again. Time to take a long break.