Sunday, February 26, 2017

新的期许

今天算是看了至少半天的书吧
难得能够睡8小时其实根本不想醒来
但因为时间紧凑所以还是不能拖延太久

未来三个月都会是这样过的
老实说很多时候都挺后悔
觉得为什么我就不能和别人一样享受周末
为什么我不能去抓Pokemon 
为什么我不能看电影刷剧
为什么下班之后那么累了还要看书

看到身边其实也有人在经历没怎么放松的周末
想想他们难道就不想舒服的过周末吗?
其实悠闲的周末谁不想过呢?
那为什么他们还在坚持呢?
坚持最后能够换来什么呢?

有人跟我说,她没后悔拿了这个考试
虽然她失败了,但是不曾后悔
她比我年长不少依然能够坚持
为什么我不能呢?

心态上渐渐好了许多
放下了之前的一些误会
放下了很多的不开心
重新再来
这一次更加能够放开来拼
现在的本钱就是一无所有,没什么输不起的

我不觉得我会爱上工作
如果能够躺着就赚钱我也想
但毕竟不聪明也不有势有钱
还是脚踏实地的
付出更多的努力
来追逐梦想

没去追逐的梦想,叫做空想
如果现在不接受挑战,那等何时呢?

Friday, February 10, 2017

突破极限

曾经一度以为自己表现得还可以
可惜今年开始很多事情都急转直下
算是经历着工作上的小低潮
很多人际关系的事情,处理起来不是那么的简单
工作表现也是另一个非常关键的问题
有时候已经努力了感觉总是不够

确实,很多时候事情都不是那么的单纯
竞争上位是理所当然的事
早就该预料到会有这样的一个状况
真实是什么我好像已经不太懂

周末是一个很好的停顿时间
能够看看要用怎样的心态去面对接下来的工作
下个星期开始又在重新出发

无论如何感谢那些一直关照着我的人
因为没有他们我基本上也不会走到今天
至少能够留下,已经不错了

极限是什么
突破又是什么
再过半年的时间
我希望我能够在这里写下答案

半年前选择了离开很多人向往的地方
半年后的我并没有任何的遗憾
选择了很多我珍惜的人与事
放弃了更多的金钱与名誉
我依然坚持己见

为了梦想继续前进
是对自己最基本的要求

有没有一种信念 有没有一句誓言
呼唤黎明的出现

Thursday, February 2, 2017

Changes

What have changed these few years? That had been the question that I always ask myself.

Used to be able to swim a few laps easily, but was sinking once I removed my life vest while trying to snorkel in Croatia. Used to be able to complete 5km run easily, nowadays hardly able to even finish 2km run. Used to be able to smash better in badminton, nowadays can't even do much apart from dropping the shuttle to the front court. Deterioration, is extremely obvious. Physically had become so bad since last year. Gained about 10kg in a year is just ridiculous for me. Sometimes I just dislike my current own self for a bit.

As a person who had high physical requirement towards myself, finding it extremely difficult to have the motivation to do sports since work. Not having enough energy to deal with these is one of the reason. I was spending a lot of energy in work & also thinking about work, yet never really reserve any for exercise. Failed to join the first half marathon in life during the first half of the year, hopefully can make it during the second half of the year.

Being mentally more mature is the only improvement these few years, so hope to improve physically as well, at least prevent from further deterioration. Nonetheless, the challenge after 24 will be to balance between work, study, exercise, & miscellaneous such as household issues. It is an extremely huge challenge that I set for myself, which I probably yet to be able to even foresee myself completing it. Anyway, the only thing to do is to do my best.

The path is never easy.